I AM HALFWAY DONE! I can’t believe it. I feel like I have been here forever and just got here all at the same time. The weeks have been flying by and I have done and seen so much. Which, sadly, none of you all know about because I have EPICALLY failed at blogging!!! I will chalk it up to being a good student and studying a ton. At least, thats what I tell my host family when I go out with my friends all the time. A good sociology student must fully integrate themselves in society by observing the locals in their natural environment, right? Anyways....
I figured its high time to explain the title of my blog. For those of you who don’t speak spanish, “casi” means “almost.” For those of you who do speak Spanish, “casi” still means “almost.” People have been calling me “casi nica” since the first day. One of my friends gave nicknames to all of us gringas, and while the other girls are Barbie, Pretty Fly For a White Girl, and Sunshine, I’m Casi Nica. I think he might have seen this blog before he gave me a nickname, but still. I got the idea of the title when Doña Laura called said I was “casi Nica” during the Dia de la Revolucion. There are certain things about me that make me fit right in here. But there are also things I don’t think I will ever seem to get right (which makes me definitely gringa). I figured it would make a good halfway point summary to evaluate my “casi-Nicaness” for you.
Reasons why I am casi Nica:
- I have dark brown hair and brown eyes. Unlike all the other girls in my program who do not have these features, I slip under the radar and can walk around without feeling like I’m in a spotlight. Managua is not used to foreigners, and lucky for me, I don’t look like one.
- I swirl ice around in my cup. Why does this make me casi nica? I have no idea. But one time when we were eating dinner I did just that and Laura Mariela pointed and laughed and said “Mira! Casi Nica!” And I just thought I wanted to make my drink cold.
- I can casi speak spanish. And I guess my accent isn’t half bad either. Casi.
- Along with that...I can swear like a Nica. (Mom, if your reading this, I’m just kidding I never swear ever. For everyone else... I can keep up with the boys in the bar).
- Carbs are my favorite sorts of foods. And guess what? The food groups here are rice, tortillas, platanos, and other maize products. Match made in heaven, I know.
- I can haggle with a taxi for a lower price.
- I believe in a socialist government. Controversial, I know, I know, and I haven’t really hashed out all of my ideas yet, but I do know that I believe in universal healthcare and education and many other public programs. And that is what they have here.
- Bugs, lizzards, snakes, spiders, and other critters don’t bother me. Guess what everyone? I have even gotten over my fear of bats! ...For the most part. I did get a little queasy when Laura Mariela told me that there are bats here that feed on cows.
- My idea of safety and health codes have dramatically lowered since I’ve been here. Not wearing gloves when you serve me food? Its ok as long as I can’t see any dirt! No soap in the bathroom? or towels? or toilet paper? Hey, at least the water is running? The back door on the bus is rusted open? Doesn’t matter as long as it still gets me there!
- I can make tortillas!
Reasons why I am not Nica
- I always forget to throw toliet paper into the garbage instead of the toilet. Yes they do that here because for some reason the plumbing doesn’t like toilet paper.
- I don’t speak spanish. (Ok I know it takes time and I’m learning but I still feel like I’m never gonna get it!)
- I am still too white. Granted, there are some people here who are very white, but for the most part, the people in Managua are a lot darker then I am.
- I do my homework more then 50% of the time, unlike the Nicas.
- I like cats! Everyone here hates them! I don’t get it.
- I can’t walk past being begging without feeling guilty or ashamed. Maybe everyone here feels the same way too. Walking past old people begging or little kids trying to sell crafts for a couple of cordobas is something I don’t think I will ever be ok with. Not that I am in the states either, but it is much more present here.
- I was taught that there are 7 continents. They are taught that there are 5. We had a 2 1/2 hour debate about this.
- I will never understand the politics here. Granted, I barely understand them in the US. The Revolution here is one of the most interesting and complicated things I have ever learned about.
- I hate groupwork! Every project here is in groups, and I am not a fan. I also feel bad for the Nicas who get stuck with me because I am such a deadweight.
- It is too hot. My body does not enjoy it.
Well, thats it. Casi Nica. Some things I’ve got, some things I’ve got to work on. Culture shock? Work in progress. Some days are harder than others. But I have awesome family and friends here who help me and keep me sane. I have my gringas to analyze and discuss with, and my Nicas to teach me the ropes and correct me when I mix up my words (like gallina and galleta, aka chicken and cookie). Who knows, in the final two months of group projects, volcano hikes, market bartering, bus riding, bar hopping, and beach napping, maybe I’ll be so Nica they won’t believe my US passport. Maybe :)